i have been blog-dormant for the past few weeks, and this was not because i did not have enough thoughts to weave into paragraphs, it’s just that my thoughts have been in disarray. as a matter of fact, i know i have much to rant about and even more stories to share.

but fact is, my mind is fuck-lazy. just like always. and it can be pretty taxing to feign sincerity, especially when it comes to writing, so i opted to just shut my mind temporarily, keep all the words in my heart, and all the emotions in my mind.

i was waiting for the perfect moment of release. 

suffice it to say, the past few days have been witness to a love that was hastily nurtured, and was ripped just as fast; friendships that have become life contracts, and those that have deteriorated into friendships that once were; life decisions that could possibly be life-altering; and the flippant regression of once steely resolutions of being stronger and weathering whatever shit life throws at me.

yes, i do believe i am in the throes of defining, or redefining, the life that is meant for me. and i know that this crucial phase will determine how i make it out eventually.

this is just a sample of how my mind has been wracked by all sorts of complications from the recent weeks, and i hope, i just do, that soon, i can weave my thoughts once more into something that makes sense.